November already...

Sometimes I think no one reads this...that it is just for me to babble and brag about our fabulous life here in Saipan...
then I don't post anything for long periods of time because I'm busy, stressed with work, struggling with living so far away from family and just have nothing fabulous to say...so why post?
I don't want it to be full of complaints...

This new job at Gold's has really just changed out lives. We now live in a house (a fabulous house actually) but there are stresses that come with that...like how busy we are that we never really are home to even enjoy our house. Jake is finished by 3pm in the afternoon and I'm not til 7 some nights. That's another major difference for us. We have a crazy dog...whom Jake loves a little more than I do. I want a baby and so does Jake (somedays) but then I just started this new job, we don't have that much money, we're still paying off tons of loans, the economy is shit everywhere...
I'm going to be 25 on Friday.
I feel grown-up. I don't want to feel grown-up. I want to be 5 again and my only decision is what to wear to school and who to play with at recess.

ahhhh life....
:)

I spent time this morning before work with my adorable little best friend (who is six) Jennah.
She has no school today so we spent the morning going shopping, baking brownies and watching some of Ice Age. She's so wonderful. I love having a six year old best friend. Adds a little perspective back into life...
my complaining/ranting/whatever you wanna call it up above...means nothing. It's meaningless. It's life and that's the way it is.
At least that is what Jennah told me today when I asked her why she had two different socks on this morning..."Duhhh jackie...it's life, that's the way it is sometimes..."

We have the good and the bad, the beautiful and the ugly, the challenges and the success, the joys and sorrow...it's all life, the way it is...

I really am happy. I'm loving life most days.
I'm down to 156 pounds...that's almost 40 pounds since I started losing weight. I feel amazing, I am in shape, fit, have muscle and feel so good. Jake has been sick lately but he is starting to get back his strength and that'll make him feel better. We have food every day for our meals and clothes to wear. We have an amazing truck that never has problems, an awesome house and comfy bed with air-con, we have money in the bank, we have friends that are like having family here, and we have family way back home that still loves us, we have this amazing monstrous ocean all around us everywhere we look which is a constant reminder of how Great and Mighty our God is.
so that's it...it's life...bad and the great...the ugly and the beautiful amazing parts.
We love you all!

Love,
J & J